Shila's Journal

tomorrow's the final paper - physics. and then no more freezing in the school hall for three hours, practically doing nothing really. just wasting time, and writing things on the exam paper as if i know what i was doing. but in actual fact i don't.

cos why? i keep sleeping early the night before the papers and end up being angry at myself. there's not even any trainings to make me feel tired! it's just lack of discipline.. it's sad.

and what am i doing here at 2310 hours on the night of the physics paper?

hmm.. i don't know, just felt like paying the blog a visit.. i don't blog that often anymore. no time (yeah right, cos i'm mostly sleeping!) and no internet access without permission. 

okay i'll get back to physics later. 

as for now..

earth hour is this saturday! dahlia sent an invite for the softballers to go her house during that hour and take part in it together.. sounds fun! but i've no idea if i can go.. sigh,but i'm still looking forward to it. to those reading this and not know about the earth hour 2009, go earthhour.org, read about it and take part! (: 

okay... that paragraph sounded very high. but not really what i'm feeling now..

oh dear after the last paper tomorrow, next week is going to come and then results are going to come and more work and more training...

if only we can have a remote and just skip through all that part and go to the part where everyone's carefree and happy and not having to worry about schoolwork. right.... like that's going to happen. but we can always imagine huh?  oh well. 

i keep telling myself that once mbts are over, only good things are going to come. maybe a change in attitude, better grades and me being happier and not having to worry much about anything.

as for now, i can only keep hoping (: 

and to you, thanks for being a great support this whole week. you're just very super. <3 (:

oh yeah, happy birthday huiming darling (: hope your eighteen was a blast. love ya! 

SIGH. HELP.

Orientation '09 - The best orientation I've ever had (:

To my Atlas House Comm:

We did it, you guys. Even though we're not first or second,  we still managed to lead our house to third place.  All our hardwork paid off! Thank god for the unexpectedly enthusiastic and cooperative J1 house members and definitely our OGLs(: and of course, each of you. love you guys so much. I. LOVE. ATLAS! Go team.

More updates later. And pictures, hopefully.

Wished Rock O.N would last so that I can see Atlas high and having fun again (: 

Till later.

 lol the mash game is funny. apparently you cant really see the details on my page cos the font's in white too. so haha, figure it out yourself (:

anyways, today wasn't all that bad. it's just a matter of learning to decide what is more important - now or the past. so at the moment, i am relieved of part of the worry that has been in my mind lately. which is good, so let's hope it stays that way for awhile...

orientation starts monday. can't wait to see the new J1s in school, but then again, i can so wait for them to come in because with J1s it means that we have to share space! no more empty canteens during breaks. but there'll be more people in the corridors, using our homeroom, and more people in the queue. gahhhh 

and good news/ bad news, i may be going perth for the floorball trip. exciting yeah? all the angmohs.. haha. but it's never a happy thing when you have to leave people behind. anyway, it's still a while more till that day comes. and when it does, let's hope it flies by real fast. (: 

but then again, i need the folks' approval before i can go. and by the looks of it, it's more like a no than a yes.. :/ oh well we'll see. 

off to do my work now, see ya. 

		I will marry Ikhwan Risydah.
		After a wild honeymoon, We will settle down in Paris in our fabulous Shack.
		We will have 11 kid(s) together.
		Our family will zoom around in a White Blue Volkswagen Beetle.
		I will spend my days as a Teacher, and live happily ever after.

 kay, i sound like as if i just got a mac. but no, im just using one i found in my room. it's my sister's and the school she teaches at actually uses the itouch to teach their kids! and they give the teachers a macbook. hahaha joke right? my sis got an itouch too wtf. 

alright anyways, i gotta hurry. before they come back cos they dont know im using it. omg what's with me doing things i'm not supposed to do these days... 

school today was draggy. sigh thursdays always are.. and if that's not bad enough, it ends with PE at 4pm. thank god thursday's over. phew.

today at compass, i got really scared. like something dawned upon me, somewhat. the A's are starting to freak me out, and i really should get my ass to work! please god, give me the motivation :S

i cant see myself being able to sit down for the A's and be confident about it. i really can't picture it. 

sigh...

but that aside, tomorrow's my sister's birthday and we bought a her a pretty awesome chocolate brownie mousse cake! haha can't wait to eat it.. ahhh (: 

okay i shall go off now, will update again later i hope. not like anybody reads this but heck, later then (: 

 
haha this is such a waste of space. i haven't been updating since new year!

what's there to update? school's been a bitch - no difference there. floorball... i've been doing alright. and life's just getting duller everyday. being J2 officially sucked since the first week. and everyday after i get back from school, i'll just find myself crawling into bed early. sighhhhh

omg cny holiday's going to be over tomorrow. oh man that sucks so much. so many plans to do, but so little time! and if that's not already bad enough, i'm lagging behind on homework only after two freakin weeks of school and i've failed two tests. how greattt

and it's so hard to please everyone.